It's funny how hard that can be, sometimes.
I'm an unapologetic Obama supporter.
My biggest issue with Proposition 8 is the Church's unrelenting, overstepping involvement in it. I don't like how they call those who wish to marry "selfish" (and I could cite if you'd like) because they won't be able to naturally "multiply and replenish the Earth." I get why the Church felt the need to state a position, but this is really over the top.
That said, I've read up on the Church's involvement with the Civil Rights movement - there were Scriptures abound that totally went against what the Church was saying. I understand that gay marriage is a bit more complicated than that. That said, I believe marriage is a good thing. I don't believe we should force our beliefs onto all people - I would hate it if Catholicism, for example, tried to make divorces illegal.
I'm just pissed off at the attitudes. Aside from the "selfish" thing (which is just so damned divisive and wrong I can hardly stand it), there are far too many members of this church who can't seem to find an ounce of compassion or an ounce of ability to really see what it is like to be gay in this world. Especially in the church. It's unbelievable. It's like people forget our gay brothers and sisters are people too.
Go read When Your 15-Year-Old Son Says “I’m Gay”
Please. Just read it.
Homophobia exists everywhere, granted, but there is a special kind of homophobia that exists in the Christian churches including our own. I've seen it, heard it, and it's just so unbelievably un-Christlike to make me sick.
Aside from that, I deleted a post I published yesterday. There were a few things I think I said out of more anger than anything else. Yes, I've heard that some in the church suggested the "negroes" deserved all the rights they were given and that God put them on their own continent for a reason. That said, our church was against the Civil Rights Movement. Accept it.
We were against the Equal Rights Amendment. What I forgot in my zeal is that, as far as my knowledge of the amendment appropriates (I haven't looked at it in a long time), I'm against it too. I just think it's lame that we have a history of saying things like this will ruin the family.
Our Church highly, strongly encourages the women to stay home. I stay home. I think it's best for the kids - but I want and need to work. It's why I blog, it's why I write. I'm not wired to be June Cleaver, and I tired about a year ago of trying to be June Cleaver. I get annoyed at all the women who try so hard because I don't buy it. That doesn't mean there aren't women who sincerely love it and don't want to do anything else (has anyone heard of the Duggars? Holy hell! I won't judge her, but holy hell! There's one woman absolutely wired to be a mommy), but my life is not my kids. I don't consider myself a feminist, but I definitely hold some of their ideals close to my heart. I also like being taken care of by my guy :)
Some women make better mommies when they work. I don't know that I'm one of them, but I know of a few off hand who do.
I do think our church has some issues regarding women and brushing them aside. I do. I've seen it. I've heard of it - like in Sunday School with the story of the stake president asking a newly called bishop's wife what she thought of the just extended call. She said "I don't like it." His response was a virtual "too bad."
What the hell.
Yes, a lot of things make me very angry. I'm a pretty angry person about a few things right now. I've got a lot going on in my head and it's not going anywhere. Part of it may be due to just my own personal life right now. I'm on my own a lot. I don't have a large circle of friends in the area - I don't relate with or share interests with a lot of women in the Church. I never really have. As much as I would like to hang out with someone, I'm just not that type. It would have to be someone who would just let me be. Someone who could make themselves at home. Someone I wouldn't have to entertain. A kindred spirit. Someone who wouldn't fuel the fire anymore than it already is. I don't need nudging. I just need an unbiased ear.
I'm angry, and I am confused (about some things). I also know what I know, and I'm acknowledging things I've tucked into the back of my mind because they deserve to be acknowledged - because if you don't they come back to bite you in the ass. I've got the bitemarks. I don't want any more.
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